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things I'm afraid to tell you

Two of my blog heroes Jess and Ez has started a blogger movement... "things I'm afraid to tell you."

Jess wrote the blog post, "things I'm afraid to tell you." Ez was inspired to start a movement for bloggers to add their voice.

Great timing for me, because on Wednesday I was about to burst with frustration. My close family and friends know that I'm in a translational phase with my career and business. So there is A LOT going on behind the scenes. Seems like May is always a turning month for me (check out the makeover my May 2010 series I did inspired by Jess).

For me May is the jump off. January we're recovering from the holiday and making our goals for the year. February we're still in hibernation. March we get tied up in everyday life. April it starts to get nice out and we realised that three months has gone by and we need to get off the pot and start working on our goals. Then it's May. One month before summer starts and soon half the year will be over! So it's really time to get it in gear! 

But I'll reveal in June all of the happenings.

I've already told you I'm childless by choice. So here goes: things I'm afraid to tell you.

1. I check my blog stats a lot. This year I backed off a lot. But I'm always wondering who's reading. Does anyone really care what I have to say? I see other blogs that have not so good design, ok photos and so-so content and they are way popular than me. I take classes and get advice to build my readership and I'm like, "I've already done or already doing that." I pout. But move on and keep on truckin'. People who aren't visiting my blog are just missing out, right?

2. I'm 1/2 extroverted and 1/2 introverted. I'm a performer. I've been since I was five. Ballet, band, cheerleading, dance squad. I know how to put on a show. I love teaching, speaking, being a Zumba instructor and being a group leader. However, I like one-on-one interactions rather than a big crowd. And after the Jeanee show is over I like to stay in my work cubicle or go home and chill with my husband and not go outside until I need food, water or soap.

3. I HATE when people misspell my name almost more than when it's mispronounced. Especially in an email when my name is RIGHT THERE for you to copy and paste! It's Jeanee Duval. One N, two E's and one L. I may not remember your name when I see your face, but I'll be sure to spell it right (especially if I'm publishing a blog post or article with your name in it).

4. Currently I'm overwhelmed. I've put SO MUCH on my plate and I just want to quit EVERYTHING. I just want to run away and disappear with my husband where no one knows us. But I'm too dedicated and loyal to ever just bounce, unannounced. I'd eventually be blogging, Tweeting and Instagraming under a new identity anyway!

5. People wonder how I get so much done. Well, I feel like I'm running in place. My to do list is endless. And I go nonstop from the moment I awake until I go to sleep.

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6. No matter how much money I make I always stress out that I don't have enough, when in reality I always have more than what I need.

7. I suck my stomach in, all the time.

8. I hate my skin. I've dealt with acne and dark spots since my teenage years. From 2003-2005 I had a good stint of clear skin. But somehow after moving to Kansas City it's gone downhill. I wear makeup ALL of the time and embarrassed to even go to the grocery store with no makeup on. I constantly touch up my make up throughout the day. I'm forever getting makeup on things so none of my Apple product stay white. My keyboards are sorta cream colored. I have an eraser handy at work to erase my makeup finger prints off of paper. I barely do not wear some sort of makeup in front of my husband.

9. I don't home decorate and I don't really go clothes shopping.

I don't decorate our home because I'm always thinking I'm not going to stay there long. I make things neat and functional, hang a few photos and I'm done. I'm too busy to decorate and I'd rather spend the money on going out to eat. I laugh when reporters what to come photograph my home. I'm going to try to decorate more.

I don't like to clothes shop because, like my mom, I'm frugal. And once I find something I wear it to death. When I go clothes shopping I go for particular things to update my now neutral wardrobe. I wear the same pair of jeans almost every day. I have a pair of black sandals and a pair of brown. A pair of black boots and a pair of brown. I've never been a shoe whore. But I've learned from my mom how to remix my wardrobe well.

10. I'm sick and tired of being the only black person all of the time. It's 2012 people!!!


WHEW! Glad that's over. Happy Friday everyone :)

Reader Comments (14)

You're a girl aftery own heart! I was nodding my head to everything except the makeup part... I can't stand the feel of foundation on my face. I feel like I'm suffocating. But then I grew up in Phoenix and in the blazing heat any extra layers that aren't absolutely necessary gotta go ;)

Anyway, just wanted to tell you I think you rock and I totally agree that well-designed websites should receive an automatic pageview bonus LOL!
Hey Paging Supermom!!! Thank you for your comment & support. I know you gals are graphic designers too. My husband calls me the design/craft gangsta cause I'm so critical of bad design. Going back to holding my stomach in! Again, so nice to meet you girls at SNAP!
May 4, 2012 | Registered CommenterJeanee
Jeanee - I love this post. You are so brave, and I give you mad props for putting it all out there. It's funny - as a blogger I feel like I do that everyday, but really - REALLY if I'm honest with myself - there is that super shy, always feeling like I'm not quite good enough or smart enough or pretty enough part of myself that will never be SUCCESSFUL enough. Especially when meeting a group of women I have never met before. So I have to say I have a lot of respect for you for opening yourself up like this on your blog. I HOPE to be able to make the KC Blogger meetup on the 10th - if I can get a sitter I REALLY want to be there to meet you and the other ladies.

May 5, 2012 | Unregistered Commentermerciblahblah
Jeanee, I can definitely relate with you in this post. Especially #10. Thanks for posting!
May 5, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterKenye@Glow Kouture
I don't comment on the blogs I read very often (even for prizes!), but I have to say something here. Your post helped me breathe again. I recently quit my day job, trying to make my own soap/cosmetic business take off. I've read all there is, tried every tip and trick, and truly believe I'm naturally a good salesperson. Still not enough, and I get very discouraged (especially when I see other products selling like gold, and I don't understand why). I see your blogs and cupcakes as successful, and I follow you for tips to apply to my own business. To hear your fears, and know you feel the same as me sometimes, means the world to me. Thank you so much for sharing this post with us.

Thank you,

ps- I really hate my skin too, and sometimes I'd rather just stay inside and never go anywhere public. I'm 28, and have never had blemish-free skin (maybe when I was 9), and now I'm starting to notice wrinkles. Great.
May 5, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterAmy
Thank you Shannon. Can't wait to meet you Thurs too!
May 5, 2012 | Registered CommenterJeanee
Right on Kenye! Thank you :)
May 5, 2012 | Registered CommenterJeanee
Awh Amy, thanks for leaving me a comment and sharing with me. And thanks for thinking Dirty Laundry is successful it's a few dollars here & there. I have many goals to meet. Good luck to you!
May 5, 2012 | Registered CommenterJeanee
I like all the honest things you wrote. I don't ever comment but I read your blog all the time and I love it. Hang in there and many blessings to you. ;0)
May 10, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterLori
Awh, thanks Lori for coming out and commenting :)
May 10, 2012 | Registered CommenterJeanee
Jeanee, I just found your blog and I'm already hooked! Thanks for posting this. I can relate to the transitional business thing...equal parts frustrating, terrifying and exhilarating! And#10! This.
June 12, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterCourtnee
Thanks Courtnee!
June 12, 2012 | Registered CommenterJeanee
Aw Jeanee, I'm with you on most all of your confessions. I check my stats and wonder why I am not more popular, I suck in the gut, I'm both intro and extroverted, I'm always overwhelmed and I hate when people misspell scrumdillydilly and scrumdilly-o! It's a lowercase "S" people...LOWERCASE. Oh wait...but I don't have any money, get anything done and am not exactly black. But hey 5 out of 10...not bad. I feel ya!
July 10, 2012 | Unregistered Commenterjessica
Hey Jessica! So good to hear from you :)
July 10, 2012 | Registered CommenterJeanee

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